help

im fat, stupid, dumb, a waste. my boyfriend threatens to break up with me because im depressed. my family members all think im a brat for not being interested in anything they have to say. all i want to do is die. its easier than waking up everyday knowing someones going to do something to hurt me. Then im dramatic for feeling and thinking this way. no ones cares and everybody judges. i cant find any reasons to be happy, i know im not alone but thats what it feels like.