Hi, I’m new to this kind of thing, but I’m desperate for some help….
I almost killed myself tonight. I can’t deal with who I am.. I am a worthless piece of shit. The only thing I love, I suck at. When my friends try to help me, I want to scream “I WANT TO KILL MYSELF” to them just so they get it. They think my emotions are typical, as does everyone else, but I’m falling apart. I know these feelings aren’t normal because if they were everyone would be dead.. I know this is probably pointless and no one will care, but I’m desperate to get this out because if I don’t I’m probably going to die..
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I care. I get feelings like that sometimes too. A lot more recently. Do you know why I haven’t though? Because I don’t actually want my heart to stop beating… I want out of my shit situation. What about you? Do you actually want to stop breathing or be out of a certain situation? If you want to die, why?
It sucks to be alienated.
No one understands me either.
I’m just the freak with a twisted sense of humor.
No one knows what it’s like.
They tell me “it’s gonna be okay”
But it’s not. It’s not okay. Cutting is not okay. The suicide attempts are not fucking okay.
I want to die. THAT’S NOT OKAY.
But they think that everything has a happy ending.
Mangler2608- I’m not sure if I want my heart to stop beating… I’ve experienced a near death situation and for a while it made me realize I didn’t want to die, but once again im not so sure anymore.
AscahlsBroken- I think we are the exact same person, lol. But I can relate, like to the tee. I’m here for you & trust me, I’ll understand.
on january 27, 2013 my boyfriend for a year and a half told me he could careless about me and that i was worthless and that nobody would ever like me or love me for me…. and ive felt like those words were true ever since i turned 14, well now im 19 and i feel the same way… i guess i havnt gotten completly out of my missery yet but im almost there im getting stronger every day… and one day you will get stronger too… you just have to tell yourself everyones opinion of you is only what they think, what you think of yourself is what really matters… and i dont know you but i bet you’re a beautiful person and someone will be really lucky to be your friend or more than just a friend 🙂 good luck with getting better, i really hope you do well 🙂
I don’t think the feelings are normal. Sometimes ppl around us really want to help but they just don’t get it that is why they say stupid things like “it is okay”, “it will be fine” or that “it’s normal”, it is hard to make them understand. But try not to push ppl away no matter how stupid their remarks, if they r trying to help u they care and u need them. I know it’s frustrating sometimes, we r here for u