I need to teach myself not to feel. Or to bury my feelings and water them down so they don’t show up anymore. I used to know how, I used to be good at it. But now, I’m told that is what a man does. He buries his feelings. A man doesn’t show every emotion he has. True men don’t show any feeling. I am mostly emotionless now. Emotions don’t cross my face, they cross my tone. They betray me in my voice. I will not accept weakness in myself. This is not an option. I must get rid of my feelings. I must not let them come out. I will not show weakness, no matter how weak I am at the time. I just want to know how to bury feelings, how to get rid of the tone.
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Dear XxmagicianxX,
It is not humanly possible to eliminate emotion from one’s being, male or female. What some men have learnt to do, I gather, is hide their emotions, and perhaps they’ve done it for so long, their emotions appear to have vanished but they’re only hiding away, being repressed in their psyches.
Emotions are not a weakness. They’re what enable us to get moving. We can’t separate body from mind, not until we’re dead of course. And the thing is, you are one composite of body and mind (soul). Holistically, I don’t see how a person can be even human without emotions. That’s like wanting to change oneself into a robot.
It pretty emotionless for the most part. Though you really shouldn’t eliminate all emotions, otherwise you become a sociopath. I have emotions, but I’m not an emotional person, if that makes any sense.