i cant even bare the thought of living even a day longer. i have marks all over me from being abused…from my family and even from me. this is all just to much. i love to sleep cause its like suicide a trailer to it. and every trailer makes me wanna see it in full. just imagine. no one telling you to do anything no more worrying about if your loved (cause u would never know anymore) no drama..FREEDOM. this probably makes me sound lazy. im not though. i have to do everything for my family..so constant going places and doing chores. gahd. no. im done.
let my parents be the parent for a change…if i leave they will be FORCED to do stuff..hahahhah sounds awesome to me.
now i wanna die tonight. later tonight. i have 5 big bottles of pills. i want to swallow all of them. everyone. i want more then just to die however. i want to leave knowing my best friend wont mind. that he can just forget me instantly. i need to leave…im going to leave. and whether or not hes okay with it. im attempting suicide and this time its ganna fucking work. (but watch it not. cuz im a fucking magnet. but that dont stop me from trying) i have had enough. bye.