its over for me , it drained me , killed me of emotions , all those crimes , all the terrible things i did , the way i live my life i dont want it anymore , and now , what do i do , only god can help me if he is there and can hear me ,
i am dead inside , there is nothing left no more , i cry in my room at times , screaming as loud as i can , and yet , no one hears me , and no one sees me , its funny , i make my money of crime , and i enjoy it , i enjoy doing crime , funny right , i dont want nothing else , i found something i love , hahaha …. i guess its the devil , around the corner , talking to me , its a done deal for me , i am getting pushed by four walls , and at the end , its a done deal
so what do i got left , i only want my family to be happy , i am drained ,i got nothing left in me , no person , only a cold terrible thing , i need help but no one can understand me , sometimes he comes around ,
help me , god , cause the end is near for me.
-The devils errand boy.
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I’m here. I’ll put in effort to understand you, because I care. We can talk, message, email, skype, text however you want. I’ll help you get through this. We can get through it together.
I don’t know if you feel like this, but I would commit crimes (mostly petty) simply to satisfy a vision of myself. I hated myself and felt like a waste of space. In a certain way, my habits helped reinforce that view, and served as a temporary release for my anger. Try to find people that believe in you. I’m not talking about people with ridiculous expectations but people who view you as more than you’re willing to view yourself. It helped me anyway. For what it’s worth, I’m willing to be one of those people. I’m free to talk, txt, message, etc. if you ever need it.