ppl are fucked up

I hate this place… UGHH!!! me n my foster sister (shelly) gor caugh shoplifting and everyones treating me lik shit. shellys’ twin (Kelly) snitched on me!! wtf!! but not for shoplifting it was for smoking weed and having a bowl in my room… but still. and she was making up a shit load of lies! ughh I just don’t no y she would do that I would do anything for her. I gave her money to put on her moms books. :'( but im so happy for the 2 younger twins (Karrie and Marrie) and when my foster mom said she was gonna search my room, they hid my shit and they lie for me and they would stick up for me when Kelly was making up lies about me. if I didn’t have those girls I would have killed my self. it would have ben so much worse for me if they didn’t do wat they did. but this still really fucked with my head. I truly believe I am a pice of shit. I cut my self last night on my inner arm lik 15 times and to day at school I freaked out in class and I cut my self in class!!! 43 times!! wat kinda person does that in class (a fucked up person that’s wat kind). lik I really just wanna die. I really am alone. lik I have friends and I talk to ppl but I don’t have anyone to live for. all I want in my life is to have at least average grades  a cute boyfriend that treats me right and wont leave me and to go back home and just try to live a normal life with out these suicidal thoughts and not being able to live mi life as my own I just wand to move passed all this but I don’t think ill b able to make it that far into the future. I just wanna c my dad that’s all I want