I don’t exactly know how I came across this website. Maybe it’s because I’m considering suicide. Maybe because I’m tired of living. I’m tired of everything that is happening around me. I’m tired of disappointing the people close to me. I’m tired of hurting people. I’m tired of getting hurt. I’m tired of crying. And most importantly, I’m tired of myself.
I may be young to be considering committing suicide but that’s all I’ve been thinking about for the past few days. I’m tired of hurting the people I love. I’d rather be hurt than them. I want all the pain to come to me, all the blame, the hate, everything.
I don’t want to hurt you anymore. I want YOU to be safe. I don’t want anything bad to happen to you again. I’ve had enough of this crap. I can’t sleep having this heavy feeling in my heart that I carry all the time. An overdose of sleeping pills will be the answer. I’m gonna be gone in no time.
I’m really sorry for the ones that will be affected with my death. I’m sorry I won’t be able to continue living with all of you. Especially you. I’m sorry mama and papa, I’m sorry I’m going to be a big disappointment to the both of you. Everything I do is for you, to make you proud but this is not going to make you proud either way. I’m sorry to all of my friends, I’m sorry, I really am. I’m sorry. If I go on, each day will try to kill me slowly so why not fast track this thing and just get this over with? I’m really sorry everyone. I’m sorry.
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PLEASE RECONSIDER.
There is ALWAYS hope, always something to live for.
My brother just commited suicide and SORRY just doesn’t cut it. The damage and aftermath is devastating to everyone who ever loved him. And trust me there are SO many people who loved him and I dont think he ever knew it or realized how many people whose lives he touched.
PLease please seek help, a friend, a stranger, anyone.
Pills won’t kill you.
How old are you. ?
Isasays: Please don’t overdose on sleeping pills. They don’t typically work and can cause organ damage. Don’t be sorry; get some help if you can. Is there anyone in your lie that you trust?
hey i know how you feel. dont give up yet. you got your whole life ahead. you can make something of it
I’m 19
If you can possibly hold on a little longer, do you think 1) you can get through this year, maybe with a little professional help? and 2) wait on decisions about whether to live your life until you are completely financially independent and have had a little more life experience on which to base your decision.
I fully believe you feel awful and want to die. I’m so sorry you hurt that way. But can you give yourself a little more of a chance?
How many chances do I have to give myself? Haven’t I given myself enough chances?
we support you.
The feeling I feel inside is killing me, seriously. I don’t want to live with this for the next days.
i want you to live
The only thing an OD will do is damage your liver, have people watching you. 24/7 and give you the WORST head ache for a week.
I’m here if you want t talk
sophieprincess2419@yahoo.com
Email me if you want to talk
Isasaya: I hear that the feeling inside is killing you. I hear that you’ve given yourself /life many chances. But you say you are young. How young? And it sounds like more than thoughts of your future life or even future death, you need help RIGHT NOW to cope with feelings that are too much for you to handle alone. Where can you get help, immediate help?
i have OD before. and it sucks. it just makes you feel worse about yourself.
If anyone wants to talk. dubzy4@gmail.com and also if i could talk to anyone. that would be great. i just want someone to talk to .
Ok, isasaya, I see, you’re 19. Are you still having to depend upon other people for your livelihood and major life decisions?