Why

So tomorrow ‘s my birthday. I hope it’s better than it was last year.. I had one of the worst years last year and I was hoping this year would be better. I stopped taking my medication and I feel fine. But today I’m thinking I want to die again. I mean I always have my days when I want to end it but today, right now, I want to go to a better place. Somewhere people will stop judging me, somewhere I won’t be afraid to be myself. Somewhere where friends aren’t everything. I want to go to heaven with Jesus my savior. Its time for me to be there with him. I want to wait till after Saturday so that all the money my parents spent first go down the drain. Agh! Why does my life suck so bad! ? Why please someone tell me why.