I want to feel happy again,

I’m sick and tired of this world.

There’s nothing to feel but pain and hatred.

I may have not done much,

but the actions I’ve made are enough.

The bile of hatred rises from the heart,

to break me.

To break me from my small air of hope.

I can never take a breath of relaxation,

I can barely rest without panic.

I want to see myself fall off my balcony,

I picture my blood seeping through my flesh.

I want to have my guts torn from my insides out,

I don’t want to feel this, it only makes me feel alive.

I don’t want to smile, for you.

I want to smile for me.

Cause this world is cruel and harsh, and this world hurts you.

No, song or letter can make things better.

I just need someone to tell me I’m right!

I need someone to show me, that this world will never fail me.

But if life, could do this for me.

I don’t want to smile for you.

If this even is me, I want to smile for me.

I want to be in my own happy world.

Away.

From.

This.

World.

I want to run way from this world.

Take me in your arms, if you’re a savior.

Let me feel, the rain as drops of crimson.

Let me smile.

Break from this cage of torment.

Liberate my mind, be myself.

I don’t want to be afraid…