pfff :'( even after getting a girlfriend it still isn’t easy to live :'(
I love sophie dearly and I’ll not die because I want to be with her (it’s a long distance relationship) but hearing that I’m not allowed to drum anymore is just so crushing :'( I want to die so badly now. I can’t cut because that would dissapoint her 🙁 I’m just drunk instead 🙁 I shoudn’t look at drugs as the answers, but it just makes dealing with things so much easier :/

I’m a failure to everyone I hate myself :'( I should die shouldn’t I ? :/ I’m a real piece of worhtless shit .