I finally told my mom about my cutting problems. She said I was seeking attention and drama. She said that this wasn’t the right way to get her attention. Well I don’t need her attention. I raised my self. I cooked and cleaned, and went to parent teacher conferences BY MYSELF. I never saw her, or my dad at concerts or plays. So why do I need her now? Why should I even bother to look for my parents in the audience. Or check for my parents car when I get home. It’s not like they are there. It’s my friend’s moms that give me rides, and bring to six flags and disney land. It’s not them. It is my sister that met with principals and school nurses. Why would I possibly want my mom’s attention now? How could she possibly know me? Why wouldn’t she try.
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That_girl: EVERYONE seeks attention. It is normal to want attention and to do things to get it. The only problem arrises in the way in which a person is seeking attention, which can sometimes be self-destructive or counterproductive to getting the type of attention one wants. In your family, you got little attention for the positive types of things you were doing for which you should have received lots of attention. No wonder it’s been hard to be direct about your needs in your family and so you’ve been trying to manage all by yourself–something no one in so much pain, should have to face alone. I”m so glad you verbalized your feelings to your mother, regardless of her unempathic response. This is good practice and others you are direct with may be much more caring and helpful in how they respond.
Can you get into therapy or talk with a trusted adult?
my mom is they same way they dont know about my depression or suicide attempts or my cutting or starving myself but because of the way i dress my music im an attention seeking whore ik how you feel whats its like i’v struggled with depresssion since i was nine and it hasnt gotten any better
Sounds like you are one tough cookie.
You remind me of me, and if it’s so you’ll be alright.
Just don’t be to hard on yourselves, everybody needs someone.
Do you know why you cut? (i did it to)