So, I have to take the ACT this morning. Yes, I’m 13, but I was accepted to take it by Duke University (The TIP Program). I’m a little nervous,  but I think I’ll be just fine. Anyway, I had a dream last night. A dream about Owen. I dreamed that we got married. I hated it. I didn’t love him. I loved Trevor. I know it seems like Trevor is kind of a “bad boy”, but he treats me just as well as Owen does. I don’t know what to do. Of course, I’ve decided to give Owen a chance, but.. I don’t know. Something doesn’t feel right. I don’t feel a spark when I’m around him. I do with Trevor. Oh my gosh! I forgot to say this yesterday, but I told Dawson that I had gotten a boyfriend yesterday, and he was in such a bad mood after that. I haven’t told my friends because I don’t want them to mess with him. I thought it was kinda funny, though. Anyways, I have a beautiful puppy that I named Charlie. He’s a basset hound. He’s so sweet. I love him. I try to tell him stuff, but he can’t really do anything to help me. He’s adorable, though. Haha. Anyways, I have to go. I have to be at the test center by  7:40. Wish me luck!
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It sounds like you’re just not attracted to Owen. Since spending more time with him is unlikely to change that, I would actually advise against giving him a chance… That may sound harsh, but…the sooner you tell Owen you just don’t feel attracted to him, the less hurt he’ll be when he hears it…
Perhaps…let him know being a good and worthwhile person has little to do with how attractive you are to those you’re romantically interested in? That may sound like a weird thing to say, but…finally realizing that made my life a lot more bearable…
Oh, good luck on the ACT! 🙂
Good luck on your test. I didn’t realize that you were so young trumpetchick. I thought that you were like 17 or 18, due to all your boyfriend troubles. I guess you’ll have to tell Owen that you just don’t love him and hopefully he’ll be okay with just being friends with you. You have to follow your heart, even if it eventually gets broken.