I haven’t posted in a while and frankly I’ve hit new lows. I read a post on here a while ago that said you cannot contain your cutting to just one part of your body, it will spread. I didn’t believe this at all. I thought I could just cut the fuck out of my left arm forever. Well now it’s everywhere on my body. Stomach, arms, thighs. Everywhere. And I love it.
Me an my boyfriend broke up (again) because he said he couldn’t handle my problems.
My best friend has to be home-schooled because her mom hates me. I haven’t seen her in weeks now and I never thought I’d miss her this damn much. My other best friend hasn’t came to school for a week straight now and I can’t call her because once again, her mom hates me. Last time I talked to her she was talking about how she wanted to kill herself more than anything right now…and guess what? It was my fault. I told her to give her ex boyfriend another try because she loved him so much and he dumped her because she cut. He called her every name in the book then blocked her number. I FUCKING HATE MYSELF. Everything that happens to everyone is my fault. I should just end it all and get out of everyone’s goddamn way.
I put a post on here a couple of months ago saying I wish I didn’t have any friends so I’d have another reason to end everything….I guess that wish is making itself come true…
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i HAVE been able to limit my cutting to where nobody can see it. I would LOVE to do my arms or my neck – and in the past I have done other areas…. but it is too visible. So now I only do thighs and waist area.
I dont see it as a big deal. It is simply a BETTER way of dealing with stress than swinging from a noose.
I agree so much with you.I just wish more people felt the same!