Last night one of my dance teachers wanted to talk about me (she knows everything) & eventually I told her about my relapse with cutting.
She asked what I considered “good things” about me, and all I could say were my cuts. We started talking about my options & all I could say was death. I could tell it hurt her to hear that, but it was all I could say.
It’s been stuck in my head that all this is “normal” & once I got home (after promising I would try and stay away from cutting) I relapsed again.
I’ve been wondering if anyone else feels like this, is this all normal? Does everyone self harm? Most people have been saying it isn’t normal, but idk. Is it worth getting help over??
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I feel the same.Im cutter.Many tiimes i tried to stop but it always comes back..Honestly,i dont know if it helps.Maybe.It just gives you some strange feeling.And you dont see it as not normal.It becomes your life.
shrinks will tell you that cutting is a “coping mechinism”.
it is your way of dealing with a hurt DEEP inside you. therapy can help. Or you can try to work through this over a long time.
If you want to talk….. i am here (and yes, I cut too)
I have FELT like that and now that I am “in recovery”, I can say it is not normal. I felt like you for a long time and would harm myself on a regular basis. The last time I did was in August 2012. In hindsight I realise it was my survival mechanism and yes it did keep me alive many times as it was that or worse … There is help out there, but you need to ask for it, or things will never change.
@survivor43 I really like your username (: I have asked for help, but it just didn’t seem like a priority to anyone. What is it like getting help?? whats exactly are you doing? My biggest fear is doing things I don’t know about.
Deliberately cutting one’s self is not normal behavior. It’s a way of replacing emotional pain with physical pain and it really solves nothing, because the emotional pain will come back.
cutting ralapses are normal yes