We started reading Romeo and Juliet in English. (I hate English class.) Luckily it was out of a textbook with definitions of the words that I would have been otherwise cluless to the meaning of. I believe star-cross’d is in line 6 of the prologue (that’s just a guess, I wasn’t paying much attention). So here it is…
star-cross’d- doomed by the position of the planets at the time of birth (first use 1595, so this would be included in the list of words Shakespeare made up).
I’d say I like this word. I’ll add it to my list (my favorite being pyrrhic). It seems to describe me, and more generically my life, along with most people’s on this website.
I’m honestly starting to scare myself while I’m thinking clearly. How much I want to die scares me. How often I cope through some sort of physical pain that destracts me from the mental pain. How I can’t even cope with small criticisms or ridiculous phrases that I overhear.
I love talking on here because people seem to understand… So, can anyone tell me what’s wrong with me? What did I do to deserve to feel like this? I don’t understand.
All I’m getting is that the world really wants me to go, but isn’t willing to get rid of me itself, just painfully push me farther away, and try to explain to me, like you would to a child, in the most blatantly obvious ways, how worthless I am.
2 comments
I doubt very much you’re worthless, or that there’s anything wrong with you besides your perspective. I think it’s really hard being a young person because there’s so much ridiculous pressure and expectations put on you to be perfect. Faced with that, it’s no wonder why so many young people feel worthless. No one can measure up to that pressure.
Probably the only thing ‘wrong’ with you is that you’re sensitive. It feels like a curse because it hurts. But it can be a gift if you use it constructively
What constructive things could I do? I don’t see how I can be useful when no one even talks to me. I don’t have any friends who’ll talk to me with more than like 2 texts in a day and my parents treat our dogs better. I just want out of my life, I typically ignore the ridiculous stuff people say, but I’m not doing so well right now.