muspelhem – there’s always the pirate bay (assuming it’s a reasonably popular movie). I’ve been watching a lot of movies the past few days, and indeed, they are way better than real life.
Cheers, but I have an odd aversion to pirating movies. Not that I’m a saint or anything. Anyway, TPB is banned in my country, and I’m too tired to work around it. But thanks, good idea, none the less. 🙂
@ hazelleyes:
Yeah. Fuck reality unless it’s got something to offer.
I can totally relate by escaping into movies or a good book. I just read the game of thrones. I used to use drugs to entertain me but that road is worse than you could imagine once u totally rely on them. I don’t know how to just be comfortable with myself… I have hope sometimes but it fades quickly. What country are u in? USA here.
Thanks 🙂 Yeah, I can imagine that with drugs. I do Quetiapine for my schizo-stuff. It sucks, and I totally rely on it. Tried weed, but that just makes me really foultempered. And alcohol bores me.
About being comfortable with yourself, do you make sure to give yourself room? You might need room to be yourself. Also, self-destructive behaviour (obviously) makes it harder to be yourself. Dunno if you’re into that, but I am, and it fucks me over every time.
I’m in Denmark, the capital of Boredom. Is your neighbourhood interesting?
I’m actually in a 4 month rehab program and I’m leaving Wednesday to go to my uncles until I get on my feet. As for the self destruction shit I can totally relate. I’m 3 classes away from finishing my 4 year college degree in criminology lol. I started drinking an doing party drugs and skipping class. My ex broke up with me and I realized I was doing it all for her and her 4 year old daughter. I just wanted to take care of them and when they were gone I just said fuck it. Had to drop out after many insane situation. Hopefully this fall ill make enough money to complete my bullshit degree. I can’t picture myself ever working for the government after being a heroin addict bit I never got caught so maybe I have a chance at making ends meet. All this shit is constantly going through my head and I have to force myself to live “one day at a time” but I’m failing horribly. My family is supporting me but if I fuck up once in out on the street again. When I’m extremely down I still want to get high but I force myself to play the whole tape through. I’d love to move to a different country. No matter what city or town you live in everything will always seem boring. Thats my perspective at least. Especially in Pennsylvania near Lake Erie in the country. When I leave here ill be near Pittsburgh… My old stomping grounds :(. I just wish I had more motivation sometimes. Just to do little things like work out… Sorry for the rant lol
Fucking terrible I’m actually contemplating going out to the empty park down the road sitting on the bench and shooting my heart out with a 12 gauge loaded with a 00 buck shot. thank you for asking I hope everyone else’s day is going better than mine
Today is pretty weird for me . It’s almost like I’m feeling ” normal ” , clean shaven , clean clothes , even started to clean the house today . But I know this feeling wouldn’t last forever so I’m going to try to enjoy it as long as I can .
don’t worry I’ve researched it all already. I found an effective way to do it I’m pretty set on it. I choose heart over head so those who actually go to my funeral will at least be able to see me one last time. a shotgun to the chest just above and left of the sternum with a 00 buck is almost instantly fatal and irreparable. I’ve tried working them out and going in but I’ve reached the end of my road
Please don’t shoot your heart out worthless1. Shotguns are very powerful weapons. (I know, because I own two of them). Please don’t give up guys. Stay safe and be strong. *hug*
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i feel like today may finally be the day………………..
time to go do some cutting. 1,000 is this morning goal.
be back later.
Entertain me!
I’m bored out of my skull. I sat down to watch a movie, which started out good, and was 10,000,000,000 times more interesting than my own life.
Then, 20 minutes into it, there’s a scratch in the DVD and it freezes.
Fuck my life. Everything is so boring.
Entertain me!
Please don’t harm yourself freak, by cutting. Learn to love yourself again. *hug*
muspelhem – there’s always the pirate bay (assuming it’s a reasonably popular movie). I’ve been watching a lot of movies the past few days, and indeed, they are way better than real life.
Yay to escaping this horrendous reality, even if for a couple hours.
@ skyinsatan:
Cheers, but I have an odd aversion to pirating movies. Not that I’m a saint or anything. Anyway, TPB is banned in my country, and I’m too tired to work around it. But thanks, good idea, none the less. 🙂
@ hazelleyes:
Yeah. Fuck reality unless it’s got something to offer.
I can totally relate by escaping into movies or a good book. I just read the game of thrones. I used to use drugs to entertain me but that road is worse than you could imagine once u totally rely on them. I don’t know how to just be comfortable with myself… I have hope sometimes but it fades quickly. What country are u in? USA here.
@ wrongway:
Thanks 🙂 Yeah, I can imagine that with drugs. I do Quetiapine for my schizo-stuff. It sucks, and I totally rely on it. Tried weed, but that just makes me really foultempered. And alcohol bores me.
About being comfortable with yourself, do you make sure to give yourself room? You might need room to be yourself. Also, self-destructive behaviour (obviously) makes it harder to be yourself. Dunno if you’re into that, but I am, and it fucks me over every time.
I’m in Denmark, the capital of Boredom. Is your neighbourhood interesting?
I’m actually in a 4 month rehab program and I’m leaving Wednesday to go to my uncles until I get on my feet. As for the self destruction shit I can totally relate. I’m 3 classes away from finishing my 4 year college degree in criminology lol. I started drinking an doing party drugs and skipping class. My ex broke up with me and I realized I was doing it all for her and her 4 year old daughter. I just wanted to take care of them and when they were gone I just said fuck it. Had to drop out after many insane situation. Hopefully this fall ill make enough money to complete my bullshit degree. I can’t picture myself ever working for the government after being a heroin addict bit I never got caught so maybe I have a chance at making ends meet. All this shit is constantly going through my head and I have to force myself to live “one day at a time” but I’m failing horribly. My family is supporting me but if I fuck up once in out on the street again. When I’m extremely down I still want to get high but I force myself to play the whole tape through. I’d love to move to a different country. No matter what city or town you live in everything will always seem boring. Thats my perspective at least. Especially in Pennsylvania near Lake Erie in the country. When I leave here ill be near Pittsburgh… My old stomping grounds :(. I just wish I had more motivation sometimes. Just to do little things like work out… Sorry for the rant lol
Fucking terrible I’m actually contemplating going out to the empty park down the road sitting on the bench and shooting my heart out with a 12 gauge loaded with a 00 buck shot. thank you for asking I hope everyone else’s day is going better than mine
i going to die soon been planing it for a year!
Horrible. It’s like breathing has become a job and I just don’t want to do it.
Don’t shoot yourself!! Most of the time ppl just paralyze themselves and end up as a vegetable. You can work your problems out!
Today is pretty weird for me . It’s almost like I’m feeling ” normal ” , clean shaven , clean clothes , even started to clean the house today . But I know this feeling wouldn’t last forever so I’m going to try to enjoy it as long as I can .
don’t worry I’ve researched it all already. I found an effective way to do it I’m pretty set on it. I choose heart over head so those who actually go to my funeral will at least be able to see me one last time. a shotgun to the chest just above and left of the sternum with a 00 buck is almost instantly fatal and irreparable. I’ve tried working them out and going in but I’ve reached the end of my road
Apathetic and selfish.
worthless1 you might want to read here http://lostallhope.com/suicide-methods/firearms first. you may want to re-think your ammunition choice, or not…
Please don’t shoot your heart out worthless1. Shotguns are very powerful weapons. (I know, because I own two of them). Please don’t give up guys. Stay safe and be strong. *hug*