My sister and I were just discussing our futures. Little does she know that I’ll be dead soon. This made cry. I’m going to ruin my family’s lives because I’m unsatisfied with mine. I feel so low at the moment. I can’t think properly.
It hurts.
All of this.
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Then live for your sister! Siblings are gift! i’m only child in my family.. In my darkest hour i prayed to have someone to share my feelings….. But now i pray for quick and painless death!
I know it’s painful, but you shouldnt force yourself to stay alive because killing yourself will hurt others. Live for yourself and if you decide that you dont want to live anymore, than that is more important than the way your family will feel after.
I just cut myself.
I feel guilty.
I need to die.
I hope you will find peace!
I hope You will find strength to live because you have something to lose…
It’s 1:53 am. I can’t sleep. I’m going to have to find a new hobby other than going on suicide sites when I’m not even suicidal. What does one do at 1:53 am 🙁
there’s nothing to feel guilty about
Sublimity, are you from the UK?
Im-just-a-kid, I do feel guilty. It appears as though I have a hole in my wrist. It’s horrible.
I’m just done.
Yep
Area?
I’m from the UK too.
Somewhere in the middle
I know you are. I read all your previous posts trying to work out why you were posting depressing pictures. I still haven’t worked that out.
You haven’t worked out why I’m posting depressing pictures?
It’s because those images reflect how I feel at this moment in time.
I apologise if they offended you.
I meant why you felt that way
It’s hard and everyone know that. Half of the people today think of what ur thinking.
I wish I knew why I feel this way. My guess is as good as yours.
I just know that I shouldn’t be here.
Well, I don’t know anything. I have the intelligence of a lint and am of no use whatsoever. I haven’t got any great ideas as to what’s behind your plight.
You couldn’t just guess anyway. I mean, you are a stranger so you don’t know anything about me.
Does that make sense?
I hope it does.
Sometimes, it’s just better not to wonder why, I guess.
It could be one of the great unfolded mysteries of the world. You could be a complete enigma.
I’m trying to be a better human. I think that’s been going ok. I haven’t thought about death in awhile and I made steak and ale pie with mashed potato and carrots.
How did you manage to fight against the battle with yourself? How do you stop thinking about death?
I never stop thinking about death. I’m always reading about it. Or watching it on TV. All the blood. It’s a rush, ya know? It’s like adrenaline. It’s a drug. Wanting you to get hooked. Feeding you. Enveloping you in it’s nothingness.
I know the full extent of my limitations just as a person paralysed from the waist down or who has lost their entire family does not seek to replace the things they know will never be replaced. They may not fully come to terms with their loss whilst they don’t consider death as a viable alternative. They once felt hollow inside whereas people with a brain impairment or defficiency feel that way all the time sometimes for no apparent reason. Those people can’t always train themselves to feel differently. There are things I can still look forward to, enjoy am passionate about which I can focus on. Not all businessmen live fulfilling lives by normal standards and people often ask why they work 12 hours a day 7 days a week when they’ll never have the time to spend or enjoy their money. They don’t know how to, they work, they are preoccupied and have something to do other than reflect on the things they haven’t got. So, what about the people who have an overwhelming feeling of despair for which their is no explanation, people like you. Depression is so commonly associated with specific areas and neurotransmitters in the brain that doctors readily prescribe the main antidepressants because that’s safe, that’s all they know that’s what the books tell them to do and it’ll raise questions if they try and be a little more adventurous. Like the guy paralysed from the waist down, sometimes you have to bite the bullet and be realistic about your life.
Hi LivingOnBorrowedIime – Yeah I know what you mean when said you don’t care if you hurt anyone by killing yourself. It’s like there is no limit to how bad you can feel, or how deep the hole is. As for thinking about death, I’d say it’s not necessarily a bad thing to do. In the western world you only have to turn on the TV to see happy/clappy people or some idiot screaming at you on an advert – the consequences being that I’ll never live up to that ideal. Live isn’t like that. I’m feeling bad about that hole in your wrist – get to a hospital and get it sorted – please. Let me/us how things turn out – we care – a lot!
It’ll be okay.
I should really clean it though.
The dry blood looks horrible. Too much of it.
My flesh looks funny.
I’ll be alright.
I’m not going to the hospital. I can’t.
They’ll know I cut.
Thank you for caring though.
Hi,
I understand your pain. It is so intense and hurts so much that you don’t know how to deal with it and the only way it seems to ever become better is if you end it.
Don’t.
End.
It.
You are too Precious.
Our emotions and thoughts, and even experiences, can be heartbreaking, but it does not prove our worth. Your emotions and your thoughts and even your experiences DO NOT change or alter Your Worth in any way, shape or form.
Your emotions, thoughts and experiences DO NOT and WILL NOT stop You from being Wanted & Special.
You were created in Your Mother’s Womb for a reason.
Love.
You are Loved. And Your Existence IS NOT a mistake.
Your Existence is here for Greatness, Love and Joy!
YOU are HERE in this world for GREATNESS; LOVE AND HAPPINESS!
The simple fact that You are alive and HERE on this earth is PROOF that Your future is
BRIGHT!
DO NOT put on the shades of death. Live.
You Are Worth Life. Live. Be Happy one step at a time. One day at a time. One second at a time. Live. Breathe in and out. Live.
LIVE.
LIVE.
LIVE.
1: Get out of Your house/home and GO WALKING everyday.
2: Get out of Your house/home and JOIN A DANCE CLUB.
ZUMBA, SALSA, HIP HOP, or whatever makes YOU Happy.
Just CHOOSE one and JOIN.
3: Get OUT of the internet and Get IN to Life OUTSIDE of Your home!
4: LIVE. LIVE. LIVE. One breath at a time. One step at a time.
Listen to children’s songs instead of the radio or grown up music, Paint OUTSIDE of Your home, Run OUTSIDE in a Park.
And last but not least. LIVE.
DO NOT isolate Yourself and DO NOT go to the internet.
The internet will mess Your Precious Self up and sink You rather than UPLIFT You.
And DO NOT forget to TALK to someone in Your REAL Life, and when things get tough,WRITE a LETTER to Your Precious Self.
Make a habit of writing down ONE GOOD thing that happened to You EVERYDAY.
Seek and You shall find The GOOD.
You ARE GOOD.
So LIVE.
LIVE!