I just can’t quite do it. I’m so, so close. I’ve got everything ready, prepared in a bag. I just have to go to a hotel and do it. It’s completely safe for everyone else, just a peaceful death. But I can’t get over that final hurdle. God this is so hard. Living is hell but dying is still so difficult, or rather, killing myself is still so hard to do.
I don’t even know what I’m asking for. Just some kind of help to get me over this last obstacle and not suffer anymore.
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Please don’t get over your last obstacle! You are holding yourself back for a reason, even if you don’t know it. You are loved, you will be missed if you go… don’t go…
I know what is stopping me. I always have.
Guilt that it will hurt those who love me.
Fear of death.
Stupid hope for things to be better.
None of those reasons is positive in my opinion.