I Just Want To Be Happy.

I believe it is possible for you to learn why you hate your life, and while you feel like this all the time, and why you want to make yourself throw up every time you look in the mirror. As far as i know, all those things are very unhealthy. Yep, it just seem like a health issue to me; you know, like flu, like having a cold, – but this one is about your mind. If i’d were you, i’d look for qualified, intelligent, reputable doctor who is skilled to heal this type of health problem – psychologist or something like that. Our brain is the most complex thing, and there is no shame if sometimes it starts to cough, so to say. Because nowadays, ecology, and pressure within societies, and not so healthy food in most stores around, and lots of other things, – they all wear and tear us down bit by bit, and not everyone has genes so amazingly strong that their immune system can fend everything off.

Or you can just go as it is and eventually die due to it; after all, some people never go to doctors even when they are hit with cancer and just chose to pass away. But it’s silly. Don’t do this; if/when you’d learn a worthy reason to kill yourself, then i’d be the first to say the words of support and encouragement to you, myself considering suicide for years now. But may be you never will, and for you, i see it’s quite possible life will become much, much better. You still have chances, i say not so bad chances, to meet your love one day. May be he’ll be ugly, may be he’ll be silly, may be he’ll be even more unhappy than you initially, – but together, world will change for you two; it happens, i’ve seen it. Just be careful when you’ll start to search for your true love. Very careful. Don’t trust easily, don’t trust any soon; and try to become friends 1st if at al possible. There is no greater love than love growing out of a good friendship.

Good luck.