I saw her. She saw me. She ignored me. She’s sick of helping me. I get it. Now she’ll start avoiding me
March 2013
All I keep hearing from people is ‘don’t do anything stupid.’ Suicide ISN’T stupid. I just want to die. Please don’t make this any harder than it already is. I think it’s time to cut.
Hi ya Kane here, I lost my mum when I was 3, she had bad asma, never new her, I got played around with as a kid and lost my verginity when I was 7 , got raped by my step mother age ten, after she sleeps with two guys, went two 18 primary schools be for heigh school, started living in youth accommodations / hostels age 13, I got hold of yello Asenoc, powder form, I mixed it with coffie and it taisted like rotten eggs, I started throwing up un controliby with in 10 mins, I wonted out so bad, still do, any […]
I am 53 years old, a professional, and one who for a long time has successfully supported my family.  Because of the economy my practice is suffering. I don’t see any light at the end of the tunnel, and while my business is still solvent I have a sense that it will collapse soon. I have been successful in my investments, and I am fortunate in that I have planned for my death.  I have life insurance policies and retirement accounts which would secure my family’s future.Â
After all the time and effort in getting to where I am, I realize that this is really all that […]
I’ve been feeling vervy down uncool and worthless i feel like a piece of shit. Have you just ever felt so guilty the thing is I have so much drama in my life it makes me sick i mean and its not like i want drama idk whats wrong with me or why iam such a fucked up person my ex was right when id be all alone and i wouldent be able to love anyone else i am having such a hard time not talking to my ex and i want to give him space but its really hard Dose love just make things […]
I’ve been feeling vervy down uncool and worthless i feel like a piece of shit. Have you just ever felt so guilty the thing is I have so much drama in my life it makes me sick i mean and its not like i want drama idk whats wrong with me or why iam such a fucked up person my ex was right when id be all alone and i wouldent be able to love anyone else i am having such a hard time not talking to my ex and i want to give him space but its really hard Dose love just make things […]
Hi all
I hope everyone feels at least as well as I do.
Today was weird, really weird. Well, oha its hard for me to explain what I want. I must give it a try.
Hum…. Honestly I don’t know what I want to tell you.
In the afternoon I got those stomach ache’s I get from lovesickness. Maybe it’s because I spend the last 4 days a few hours with my love, yes the same person from last year.
I struggled hard with myself this afternoon. I was pretty much nearly crying, … I don’t know what happened. I thought I am okay, I am done with my […]
I know it is stupid to think that anyone i know will read this……
but, I really hope today is my last day.  I think hanging seems like the best way from what I have read. Â
I wish better luck to the rest of you
i would post my whole story but im told it sounds like a lifetime movie and that i am not  telling the truth ….ill post it one day hopefully before i die …. 🙂
I did it again, I made a mistake. You’re right, now are you satisfied?
They say the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, and expecting a different result each time. I always have felt like I’m different then everyone else, but I never truly believed that I’m crazy.. Well, not loony-bin crazy, at least. I just think for the most part I’m a product of my environment, and as the years have gone on and I’ve been through so much pain and bullshit, I am starting to see the steady deterioration of my mental health. God, I wish I could turn back time. I mean, at 13, I knew I’d been abused as […]
I don’t know how to start this but i guess today has been a shitty day for me and it got me thinking of how shitty my life has become-_-
Let me start this by telling about how over the last few years i have been in love with this girl and 4 months ago we finally realized we were meant for each other and are happy together. Also to mention we are long distance. sounds great? Well it almost seems like when we started dating that my life turned to shit. None of this is because of her, she has been amazing and she is […]
I know it doesn’t hurt, but
breathe anyway.
Breathe anyway.
Breathe anyway.
I know you’re not tired, but
sleep anyway.
Sleep anyway.
Sleep anyway.
I know you’re not scared,
but shake anyway
Shake anyway.
Shake anyway.
I know you’re not sad, but
cry anyway.
Cry anyway.
Cry anyway.
I know you’re not in pain but
bleed anyway
Bleed anyway.
Bleed anyway.
I know you feel free but
fight anyway
Fight anyway.
Fight anyway
I know sometimes it feels like we’re in this for nothing. Some days you can’t get out of bed. Most days you can’t get out of bed. When you close your eyes and lay down, all you can hear are the voices that make you eat your mind. Sometimes they’re so loud that all you can do is silently scream by yourself. Sometimes you have to actually scream at nothing. That’s what it seems like, right? Like you’re screaming at nothing? It’s like the problems aren’t problems in reality, but the fact that you exist at all is the problem. I can vividly describe the […]
From Ellen’s home planet, good morning to you. 🙂
Im kinda new at this, but here ya go. Im the guy that everyone knows, and some consider their friend at school. I live in the dorm, so i got some close friends. But if i have friends so close, how can they not tell behind all my laughs and jokes, Im dying inside. I just want to scream, tell someone all the shit im going through. How Im watching everything good, everything that I care about going to pot around me. The girl I love doesnt want me, doesnt love me anymore. Im failing my classes. I try but im just not good enough. […]
What the crap, is up with the security question for this site nowadays? “Who was the second president of the united states?” John Adams, john adams, john Quincy adams, john quincey adams. none of them worked. was I mistaken by history? took me forever to make a New profike beacuse my password is lost on the old one. had to wait for the “what color is healty grass”? question to finally make a new. Anyways, if any of you pople are still here form the past, find me.  [SyKo]NuclearAnthrax , was the previous Account name. So yes, life is crapsalad. i want to cut. cut cut […]
First Post?
Yes, it is. So let us start from the beginning shall we?
I’ve been on this earth a medium amount of time, but I feel so much older, like I’ve been here since the beginning. I hate everything about myself and my life.
I live with family, bouncing from couch to couch, I live out of boxes and suitcases, but honestly, I don’t even need them. I used to go to school until my depression just got the best of me (I was diagnosed 3 years ago).
Before this..I had a pretty ok life, I was with the guy of my dreams, and I mean, we fought […]
im just broken and hurt and lost i feel like suicides the only answer ive been told over and over im worthless and i should kill myself already PLEASE HELP im only 15