I really don’t know where to start with this,I often go online an look at other people’s s thoughts about suicidal thoughts as I like too help with advise. Never thinking it would happen too myself recently I have had more an more thought about it as my life seems too be going down a downward spiral. I am male 20 years old list my childhood friend last year he hung himself over difficulties of life and losing him has been torture. I recently lost my job(unjustified)sacking yet no one will listen too me! Was a great job and has broken me too pining of thought about taking my own life, I have a great family but yet I can’t reach out and tell anyone what I’m thinking an the state I’m in! I can’t believe I’m posting this as I’m a strong guy(soo I thought)
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Having these thoughts DO NOT make you weak, they make you human.
This shows how strong you are by working on solving these problems now. There are too many people who have or are wasting their lifetime because they refuse to take control of their own lives and enjoy themselves. You’re on the right track, man. You’ve got decades to live on your terms. Will you do this, T.O?
Losing a friend, losing a job are difficult trials to have to go through and not about weakness. Such losses plain old suck.
Often at these times our world view and belief system come into question. The understanding of how we feel and were taught the world should work and our experience of it is disconnected. Often this inner conflict is subconscious; maybe we don’t have the tools yet to deal with this sense something is wrong, maybe we fear that any re-evaluating our believe system will leave us alone, separated from family and friends.
From personal experience I can tell that the realisation that your belief system does not conform to your experience is very painful.
I spent a great deal of time attempting to “re-frame†my experience†so that it would fit back into my belief system. Friends and Family tend to favor this approach – subconsciously if not actively – as it protects there view of the world and their place in it. I wonder if this isn’t one of the reasons you are reluctant to turn to them for help.
Eventually, after a great deal of pain, my experiences forced me to really look into my belief system, my general expectations on how I felt the world should work. Concepts like Love, loyalty, courage, justice, hope, good… I really wanted to die!
There are two types of death, biological and psychologically. To the mind there is no difference.
Soul pain will bring about the thoughts of dying and suicide, but these thoughts are more often than not, not about biological death but the death of a way of thinking, doing, believing…
A Job ending is a death, changing a way of thinking is a death, losing a friend is also an inner death, and these deaths need to be mourned so that the new can be born.
This process of the life-death-life cycle is painful. It hurts to let things go. But the promise is, and this can be seen in almost every story mankind has told, that when we do accomplish this heroic journey we return more our true selves.
We all I think have a dark night of the soul, a call to death, how we deal with that call, well that’s the story
“The sun rises every day.
Lock the sun in a box. Force the sun to overcome adversity in order to rise. Then we will cheer!
I will often admire beautiful sunrise, but I will never consider the sun a champion for having risen.â€
― Garth Stein, The Art of Racing in the Rain
Loss has placed you in a box.
Having someone to talk to that is not connected to you by friendship or family can help, someone you can trust but whose world view won’t be threatened by your questions and experiences.
We want to cheer