I had a bad day today at school I didn’t feel too good about myself and I feel like I deserve a good cry after it. I was in gym when a group of kids in my class asks a boy “would you ever go out with her?”  he responds “hell no!” and the kids laugh and say “do you think she’s cute?” and he replies ” she looks like sh*t”. I remember being bullied in the sixth grade it was like no matter what I did nobody liked me and kids would kind of say mean things to me and I had no friends but I’d go home and I used to watch anime and TV shows with characters that felt like underdogs much like myself  and through watching them I was kind of able to escape reality but it’s been four years now I’m in the 10th grade I have depression now and I feel so lost and as much as I’ve been able to receive help online I still feel lonely and I don’t really have any friends that may seem hard to believe but sure we all have “friends” and people we hang out with from time to time but I have no one that I can go to that understands  and people will say just be positive like its easy but its not and you shouldn’t care what people think. *sigh* it’s three AM I’m going to go watch a comedy movie maybe that’ll get mind off things . I just wanted to be pretty for once
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There are lots of kids out there that compare their lives to the underdog in anime. Unfortunately, I’m too old to watch anime but if I wasn’t that’s exactly what I’d be doing.
Yeah, it’s easy for people to say all that stuff isn’t important, maybe its not but it feels very important. You’ll almost completely forget about this time in your life, to the extent that in the future you’ll wish you could go back.
I wish I could go back to 6th and lift myself up so I wouldn’t be here now
In a group, retarded guys will “echo” all sorts of things about anything interesting they see. It’s been said many many times before, but women should try to relax about their own appearance a little. Almost every guy that looks a woman will automatically want to have sex with her, usually during multiple glances each day. You won’t hear intelligent grown men blurting out loud about which women they don’t want to bang.
Because there aren’t any women like that. Crazy chicks, chubby chicks, tall twins bisexual native american asian black white hispanic rich and poor older younger: we’re at least curious to try it first before we’re sure we ain’t gonna like her. That silly game is for mentally disabled boys who aren’t sure if they’re gay yet, or they have an inverted penis that’s jammed up inside their own butts.
thanks but I still don’t feel too good
it was a group of girls who told him something,if they didn’t say anything he would’ve left me alone
I’m so sorry you feel that way, you are so much more valuable than that. Think about it like this: you can take a $100 bill, and stomp on it, crumple it, spit on it, etc. But guess what? Its always going to be worth the same amount, it will always still be valuable, just as you will always be valuable no matter what other people say. You have have a truly beautiful heart, and it takes a beautiful person to see that. I watch anime and TV series to escape the way I feel, and theres nothing wrong with that in my opinion. I just hope your reality improves (:
Thanks for the nice comment maybe I’ll feel better someday
Is there a teacher or someone at your school who you feel comfortable talking to about this hopefuldreamer? I’m a teacher and I know that kids can say some pretty mean things and bully the weaker students.
not really I do have a social worker I’ve been talking to but I don’t feel like that’s a big enough issue to bring to her