Lately, Ive been feeling very overworked, and even more under appreciated. I almost broke down while making dinner a few days ago. Ive been overworked because my older sister hasnt been here to pick up her share, so naturally it all falls on me. No, housework is too below my older sister, shes too busy flaunting “natural talent” for something that has been MY dream since I was a little girl. Every play she auditions for, she gets in, shes never shown interest in acting before, but she just has to be better than me. Ive been taking lessons for as long as I can remember.
Its like everything I try to be good at, she can do it 10x better. First thing when she walks into high school, they’re begging her to join Senior band. In music class, Im a straight A student, and I play at a high school level, but no one pays attention to me. Hell, Im playing BLUESFEST! I will be playing a solo in front of thousands, and I am still in her shadow. Im not even sure if my dad wants to come. The only one who seems to be enthusiastic is my grandad. My dad, however, would rather see ‘Tragically Hip’ than his own child, but of course he’ll drop everything to see Bridget! No matter how hard I try, I am never good enough.
I have to sit and watch while they console her for getting 73% on her test, while I showed them my 83% mark that morning with hardly a ‘Congratulations’ or God forbid, ‘Im proud of you’! I do my best, but Im shoved away, all the attention is given to my miraculous older sister.
Even my younger sister gets more attention than me. My dad takes a full day off work to see her at a talent show, but is reluctant to see me sing and play in front of a large crowd. I feel as if all my efforts, everything I do to please people, are for naught.
Everything is done to accommodate someone else. I plan to go shopping for a whole week, and last minute, my parents shove my younger sister on me, Mrs A-Million-And-One-Friends, just because we had no internet at home. Im not allowed a few hours with my only friends!
Meh! Im sorry for wasting the time of anyone who bothered to read this -.-