I thought I was ok

Sometimes people withdraw because they are afraid of saying or doing the wrong thing. It’s almost never because they are mad or angry with you, and even if they seem angry or mad, the reaction is usually a natural reaction to what they perceive to be your rejection of their lifestyle. “If the things that make me happy don’t make you happy, you must not like me”

Don’t take it personally. Rather focus on the things you can change. There is probably one small thing that is sucky that you CAN fix. You can’t change all of the big things, or even some of the big things if you’re like most of us, but if you work really hard you might be able to change one big thing.

And it’s really easy to change a ton of small things. Maybe it’s the color of your clothes. If you hate yellow and 10% of your clothes are yellow or you really don’t like stains and some of your clothes are stained, get rid of those that you don’t like. Even if you only have a few shirts. Get rid of the annoying ones or uncomfortable shoes or things you don’t wear. Remove something stupid from your life.

Let go of something. Be it a poster, a book, a plant, give them away. Then make something to take it’s place. It’s important to make it with your hands. Using your hands is important. If you have a need for a shelf, find a way to use the things you already have to make a shelf or a table etc.

Rearrange. You’d be surprised how differently you can feel if you wake up and see something different every few months. It gives you a good perspective.

Lastly Eat WELL. Eat fruit. The sugar will help, and the fruit is good for you. Don’t worry about how much. Just eat as much as you can get your hands on. Forgo bread and meat for a while, even veg, just drink a huge thing of OJ and eat four or five apples a day, strawberries, whatever works for you, eat fruit. And SLEEP a ton too…