9 days

I have burned down every bridge when I was with him. I have no one else. he has 9 days and it’s killing me. Finally finding someone who makes me feel safe and relaxed for just the little bit of time I get to spend with him. I cry so much thinking things are going to go back to the way it use to be. I had nothing to wake up for. He was the only reason I’m here. He saved my life. He has 9 days left and then he will be gone. He will be in the military. I will be the way I was before I met him even worse because not being able to feel safe your whole life but then you meet someone and in his arms you are safe from all the fears and people who have hurt you in your life it’s a relief I can not describe. I will no longer have that. He showed me what was to be loved and how to love. I let him in the only person who knows everything. 3 years I will live with out the love of my life. My best friend. The guy who has my heart. He will be so far away.