i feel like i have a shit life even if people say im lucky. i have a dad who now cant even talk to me or even keep his promise. so yes i feel like a peice of shit because the only thing i want know is for him to actually care but i guess it is usless. all i ever do is try and hope. hope things will get better hope that ill have an actual family. but im done trying to hope for things that wont happen i give up.
i wish someone would shot me, cut me so deep and have me somewhere to die, Â or maybe ill do it myself one of these days.