I am smiling. It’s probably some sick smile because I don’t think it’s an appropriate reaction to what happened.
So, anyway, the therapist I’ve been working with for about 3 months – sometimes twice a week for 2 hours at a time doing EMDR – sent me an email to shit-can me today.
Seriously.
That’s right, folks. Go for help and get shit-canned. TRUST NO ONE.
I laugh. Did she really think that drugging up past trauma wasn’t going to generate some sort of dissociation? Depression? Suicidal thoughts? She is a TRAUMA RESOLUTION SPECIALIST but she can’t work with dissociative states? FTW? FTW?
And, she emails to inform me of this ON A SUNDAY, TWO DAYS BEFORE THE MEEETING that could save my life and that SHE INTIATED? O, and ROFLMAO, and IS NO LONGER ATTENDING?
Thank you very much. SMILE.
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I’m not sure how to respond, but the way you end your posts with “smile” reminds me of a lecturer at the university I work at. She always ends her emails with “Smile”…and I don’t think I can ever read them the same way again.
I’m sorry about your Sunday…I’m not 100% what happened, and I don’t know your history, but I do hope you give this therapy a chance. I’m glad there was something there that could save your life.
Well, there’s no therapy. She quit on me.
“Was something.”
Yeah.
🙂
I’m sorry Dawgmom.
I’m sorry too. I have emailed her and she has responded but she is just so angry right now. I think she lost confidence in herself – I scared her by sharing too many dark thoughts. And, I don’t think she knew how to support me / help with the other issue I have going on (I’m deaf and have been trying to get help from a state agency to get hearing aids for over five year and they just keep screwing me around). I think she might just be doubting herself and me but I don’t know. I just know that it makes me feel like more of a fuck up. Sigh.
DawgMom, you should totally read (principledearth.net) Aequitus’ accounts of psychiatric misconduct and incompetence. His experiences lend credence to the reasons that have always kept me well behaved enough to never encounter those same experiences myself. (plus all the scary movies and TV shows about horrific institutional experiences)
Dawgmom: No therapist should ever terminate on a patient without a really gooddamned good reason (like they are dying). I’m sorry this happened to you and perhaps it’s a moot point now, but God that makes me mad!!!! These people that we pay to help us must at a minimum:
*Accept us for who we are right now
*Never, ever criticize us
*Never give up on us
*Give us excellent referrals and take full responsibility if for whatever reason they cannot help.
CTB: In order for them to:
Accept us, never, ever criticize us, never give up on us and give us excellent referrals / take full responsibility if for whatever reason they can’t help, they would need a heart. They would need to care and want to do hard work.
I think it’s pretty accepted now that if you have a complex issue – PTSD, severe depression, or other ‘serious’ problem – you’re often cast into the ‘system’ or left to rot. There are plenty of easliy ‘treatable’ people out there with jobs and money and insurance so, why bother with people like us?