Well, the love of my life died suddenly and tragically in a car crash two days ago. The car split in two. All over the news. I was just going to visit him this week; only one more month until I made the decision to move to his city and attend the university I was accepted to there.
Icing on the cake though is that he was a passenger in some girl’s car. His mom and family say he only mentioned her once and that he was a “one woman man”. I believe it was an innocent and friendly meeting but it still hurts. It hurts because they have had sex in the past (before I knew him), and that this girl walks away with a broken fucking leg!! And she was driving her boyfriend’s car!! Only a block away from their destination…
He was my confidant, my hope, my support, the future father of my children. He was so loving…
I’ve never felt this type of pain in my life. This loss trumps all. I don’t know where you are James, but I want to be there with you rather than here. He was one of a kind. Everyone else on this earth is selfish and uncaring towards me. Only he knew how to care for me.
How can I go on? I can’t.
I just hope that I am pregnant and thusly can avenge his untimely death; give his mother the grandchild she’s always wanted and take away a bit our pain.
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I am so sorry for your loss.
Coping with such grief can be overwhelming, exhausting, and depressing.
I hope you can find the supports you may need to get through this.
On Shanti