Never wrote on a site like this. Â I’m a 32 year old man who has seemingly led a commercial life. Excitement and fun. The hard part has always been this overwelming feeling of the world crumbling down around me. Until last year i was married and had a son. A family and friends. June last year it crumbled to pieces. wife told me she was done while we had friends over for an evening party. Friends decided to follow her. I’ve gone the last year alone, seeing my now 3 year old son through out the week. I am spending alot of time scared. I know that the inevitable is appraoching soon.
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It is hard to have everything you know change in one wave. I’m sorry you are scared, but admire you for being man enough to voice that to others.
Point 1: This is a new way of life for you. You cannot base your response on one year alone.
Point 2: I hate to pull the “kid card” – and I mean I REALLY hate it. The reality, though, is that your son will look to your example of how to ride out hard times. I’m not saying you should stay here if you honestly feel there is nothing else to be done. I only ask that you consider the example and legacy you would leave this child. His mother may have made HER choice, but he has not yet been allowed to make his.
I hope you can find just a moment of peace tonight.
Just work. Work hard and live for nothing but to be ready to help your son, someday… because in this world, it’s very likely he will eventually need it.
Consider yourself lucky that you even had the opportunity to have an offspring. I know it’s not always the greatest and most rewarding thought, but he didn’t ask to be born, any more than anyone else did, and so you should feel a sense of duty, even pride, to be able to experience something so sacred (which most people lack the ability to appreciate), and help him through life.
If you exit, you’re only teaching him that life is so hard that it wasn’t even worth sticking around for him.