I am not sure if this is a universal day that everyone celebrates/knows about, so I’ll just explain what today is. Today is Father’s Day and this day, along with Mother’s Day, is one of the hardest days of the year. What Father’s Day is, is a day focused on fathers around the world (I think it is around the world, if not I believe it is in North America at least) and their children and families treat these fathers with extra respect and love. Some people give gifts, or cards or just have a dinner with family. But for my family, we go all out. My entire family gets together and we all collaborate for the fathers in our family.
This day is so hard for me because of who my father is. We do not get along, and I can never see us getting along either, but I have to pretend like he is the best father in front of my family. Sure, I pretend to be happy at school and stuff, but in my own home and with people I call family, I have to act like I love my father. It may sound horrible, but I do not love my father; I do not hate him either. I just understand that he has made the decisions he has and that I can do nothing about it. But on days like this, I do not want to have to smile and hug him and tell him that I love, it hurts me to do that.
My family just left and I managed to stay strong in front of them. But I caved when they left and I caved hard…
It is so hard to look at a man that has caused so much pain and tell him that love him and have to act like I mean it…
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Yep I know the feeling! I hate Father’s Day and Mother’s Day. yeah, and all because I have to accept that I have two parents who are mentally and physically abusive and they’re alcoholics, I have nothing to do with them now. Yet I have to remember them every year, just for the fact that these two days reminds me of them, without even trying. And to answer your question, yes people celebrate this day all around the world.
I am glad someone understands where I am coming from…it was not my intension to come off as a horrible person for having these feelings.