I haven’t been on this website for a while but I just came back to say that I’m not giving up. It’s not my time yet. I’ve been lost in life for far too long now. I’m a 16 year old guy who spends lots of time alone. I’ve lived most of my life alone. And I’m ready to live the rest of my lonely life. I’ve had lots of time to think. I’ve realized that this is who I am, I will always be lonely. I realize this was meant to be. Loneliness has made me a strong person. I don’t like being alone but I’ve finally learned to live with it. I also learned why I want to live. I want to change the world. And I can’t do it by myself. I learned I like helping people. Helping those in need is what keeps me going. I feel amazing when I can help someone. I feel alive everytime I do it. I want to help people, I want to save lives. so I decided I wanted to be a firefighter, a cop, or a psychiatrist. Helping people makes me happy. It’s what I live for. My life is hard and I know other peoples lives are lot harder than mine. Thats why I wont give up. I wish I could help everyone on this website. I’m not gonna try to find these people and help them out. That would be insane but I will listen. Everyone has challenges in their lives. But we must never give up on ourselves. If you want the pain to end then you need to face it head on. Pain is temporary. Doesn’t matter how long that pain lasts. It is temporary. And I’m still breathing because I never lost hope. I will live.
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You made a good choice. From one lone wolf to another. It has always been my way to be a loner. Not a real social butterfly but I don’t walk alone. I have a walk of faith and God is with me wherever I go. I just recently divorced and soon my children will be living with my ex. That is going to be a test but God must feel I am ready for it otherwise it wouldn’t be happening and me having peace about it. They are not small but teenagers and I will see them but just not live with them. I like your attitude about helping others. That has been mine too. I have always felt the need to stand up for the underdogs in society. So many struggles I have had and still do but now it is not overwhelming because of my faith. I do have a few close friends but I am perfectly content to sit alone somewhere and meditate on God’s Word or just soak in nature. I too used to have aspirations of athletic greatness but those pursuits ended with injuries. I am glad you posted. So much negative posts of young people saying goodbye or I want to die. So refreshing to read yours and you just keep posting your positive message. It does help. Thanks.
Don’t take life too seriously and be the best person you can be.
Its funny how I added that “I want to change the world. And I can’t do it by myself”….I guess I still had hope even though I said I was used and meant to being alone…..An unconscious lie