Alright, so I’m not suicidal. I have cut, but they’re just scars now. This past year has been horrible. From family problems, to relationship problems. My boyfriend cheated on me, but we’re still together. He really is amazing. I wish I didn’t love him. We have been dating for 7 months, almost 8. The girl he cheated on me with doesn’t like me, but just because I told her to back off.. I had a reason to.. Right? Well, she hates that she’s the second option.. But she doesn’t know how it feels to know that there even is a second choice. I got taken away from my mom, along with my other 3 siblings. I am currently living with my half brother and his mom and her husband. We have the same dad, but we don’t know where he is. That family treats me greatly. My mom was in jail for awhile, but it seems like she’s getting better, learning from her mistakes. I see her a lot more than I did last year, which is great. I barely even talk to my younger brother and sister. My older sister is like my bestfriend. Last year school year, I was somewhat popular. My life was great. Then everything with my mom, and I moved. I switched schools. I’m starting to really not like a lot of people. Where as last year, I loved everyone. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t the prettiest girl, or the skinniest. I’m still not.. at all. In fact, every night, I cry myself to sleep cause of my insecurities. I do believe every girl is beautiful, but somehow it’s different for me. I don’t know why I can’t seem to like myself.
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Sometimes depression makes you see only the bad things, including the bad in other people, so you start to not like anyone. Don’t let it win.
There is hope for you. You must be a likeable person, you had lots of friends. Then something bad happened with your mom, and you reacted to it. That’s normal. You can get back to the happy place you were, it just going to take a little work.
Thank you, I might be going to counseling soon. I don’t really want to, but it might be good for me.
One of the purposes of counseling is to see your self reflected back and in doing so get a better understand of your self. Having a better understanding can only help you get to where you want to be.
Having someone, a third party that we are not in a personal relationship with to us to talk to can be of great help, as there is no reason for them to be threatened by what you tell them.
You can be honest about what you think and feel without fear of judgment. That’s important to remember, counseling is not about judgment but acknowledging was, morning it, and then moving through.
Counseling creates a space where you can really “hear” what you’re saying, thinking and feeling and discovering the truth of it.
Congratulations on wanting better and doing something about it.
Can the counselor tell your parent/guardian, even if you tell them not to? Or do they have to be in the same room with me and my counselor? My sister also said she didn’t want to go to her counselor either, but once she got there she said it was great. I didn’t even know my sister went to a counselor, and I think her saying that has made my mind up pretty quickly. I am going to see one on June 21.
There’s certain things that a councillor, by law, has to tell your guardian about, like if you say you have real plans to kill yourself, the councillor is legally obliged to inform the police. Also I think is you state that you are beig abused by your parents, the councillor is legally obliged to inform child protection services. But as far as your general feelings of depression, you should ask your councillor to keep that confidential. I doubt very much your parents will sit in on the session with you! That would be really awkward. It sounds like your sis got a good councillor… Are you seeing the same one?
Well, I’m not planning to kill myself and I’m not getting abused, so I should be good on that.
I don’t think I am, I don’t know my counselor’s name yet. It could be a possibility though! I was told that a lot of the counselors from where I live are great and they really help people. My bestfriend went to one and she said they were like bestfriends, so I’m actually kind of excited now!
Hehe you’re funny. First you didn’t want to go and now you’re excited! It’s a good thing, to approach everything with enthusiasm. It’s a very nice characteristic. Best of luck with it, and remember, if you don’t like them, you can always change to a different councillor. But it sounds like just talking is helpful to you, so I hope keep it up.
I want to send you a song I wrote, maybe it will help you.