I never thought I would be here now. I recently turned eighteen and have been thinking about ending things lately.
You see, a few months ago I made a mistake of driving my car after working a double at work while under the influence of weed. I fell asleep at the wheel, crashed into a tree, and totaled my car. I am now in the process of receiving a DUI, and trying to get into the ARD program. ARD is a program that will remove a DUI from your record, and allow you avoid jail time, this is for first time offenders only.
But I just feel like if I have already messed up this bad two months after I turned eighteen, what could I possibly have to look forward to in the future. What do I tell my future husband and children? I am still hiding it from my boyfriend. None of my family for friends would ever see something like this coming from me, but sometimes I just feel like all the confusion and pain would stop if I did.
Let me know your thoughts on what you would do in my situation..
2 comments
You made a mistake. That happens. But the way you talk about it makes it sound like you butchered hundreds of people. You speak as if you did something unforgivable. Which makes me think you must have pretty ridiculously high expectations of yourself, which doesnt allow for mistakes.
You’re not perfect. That’s ok. You’re allowed to make mistakes. Tell your boyfriend. Don’t keep it bottled up. Learn from your mistake. Don’t do it again. Forgive yourself for being human. Move on. Good luck.
I have fucked up so much… i am 26. I am almost 20k in debt.. separated from the navy for not being good enough, still a virgin, no gf of course, very few friends, bleh blah blah. I have fucked up so much and I am still here ! It is amazing how wrong our lives can go and yet we still endure! Its a very tragic thing and yet it can be a good thing , that is if you are a good person and will not make anyone else’s life Hell.