We all know why I’m here, so let’s get straight to the point.
I’m not totally unhappy with my life, but… I honestly feel hollow and depressed,Â and I lack a purpose for existence. I know that should I end my life my family would be devastated, but don’t I deserve to be happier as well? I’m convinced that killing myself will bring me peace, yet I don’t want to be so rash in my decisions. Can anyone give me some advice?
A lot of it depends on your beliefs about an afterlife. You seem to suggest that you’ll be happier. I don’t know if that means you think you’ll be reincarnated, ascend to Heaven or maybe spend some time in oblivion.
I’m personally leaning toward some time in oblivion. I’d like to believe I’ll stay in eternal oblivion, but we’ve all transitioned from something into our present lives at birth. So that makes me doubt the “eternity” of oblivion. At any rate, I don’t think I’m going to feel happiness in being oblivious, either temporarily or eternally.
I will cease to be. I’m don’t think we’re well equipped to imagine oblivion. But if we cease to be then one thing’s obvious: we won’t even “know” that we’re dead. People have various ideas about what we’re getting into. I don’t expect to “be happier,” or to even “know” whether I have died: because I’ll be dead.
Great questions (my 2 cents) I hope others comment too.