Things do not move fast enough in the morning times, or night times or any time someone is manic I guess. Not saying I am. Just more acting manic. Mind racing, feel unstoppable. How was I gunna relate this back to depression or suicide…I guess really the fact that this is the only time I am alone is quite dangerous if I were so inclined. In fact all my attempts except one have been in the dead of night. General factors that were present for all of them, a means to an end, alcohol and…time. I guess thats all anyone ever needs…