What’s the point of even trying anymore?  It’s clear that things will never change, these rash and stupid emotions that plague me daily will never stop no matter what drug I take or how high I get. I used to think it was just a phase, just something people go through but now I see that i’m not capable of being a “normal” person anymore, I have seen the world for what it truly is and no matter what therapy I try I can’t change how I see things. I turn 20 in august and I have so much fear of another year going by another wasted year. I don’t see any other way I have tried everything but I keep coming back to the same conclusion..It has to end sometime, right?