im getting more and more stressed out. these four walls seem to be closing in on me. the rain barracading me in. the darkness reminding me i have little time left to get my act togethr and get away. my heart palpatations are getting worse, bordeing on pannick attacks. i cant get out of my room, my hands are shaking. i need to cut, rip open my skin and see that familliar red stream start to form, watch it weave its way through scars. im scared and lonely. theres no other way out.