Anyone else notice that there is a delay publish setting? How convenient is that. Very convenient, that is how much. I have a very bold plan that I am setting up. I mean it is bold and daring and probably doomed to fail but still very exciting. I just hope I have the nerve to do it. I use to care about whether or not I would be making a public display of my death or trying to limit how gruesome it is, but really there is no rules in death. Trying to create any for yours just hampers the process. Unfortunately I will have to wait awhile. It is like waiting for Christmas.

With that in mind, I have to update why I am going to attempt again. I do not know how much of a factor this is but just plain depression. I stopped taking my medication. Why? Well I find depression will make you desperate and in times of trying to kill yourself you have to be desperate. It is more than that however, I am just really angry at everyone in my life. Also, the thing I thought I would regret not doing, was out of my control anyway. It was never a possibility.

So wish me luck and I would just like to say how fun this site has been, I may be twisted for saying that, but it was good to see like minded people and some of you had very insightful posts.