alone

I am sick of feeling the same things over and over.

“I want somebody to care” I say, well seriously. What do I really expect? Why should I expect anybody to care? I am nothing. Nothing at all. I am small and needy, like a child, my mother is surely sick of me by now. The first 2 attempts didn’t work. I’m still waiting for some miraculous solution to reveal itself. Maybe in a few days time. I used to have people in my life. I used to be cared about, now everyone who ever meant something is just a ghost, a memory, and I am alone. My god, I have never felt so alone.