Fuck my life

It’s my first post here, I must admit that I don’t know why should I bother doing this given that nobody gives a fuck what I do. I want to fall asleep and never wake up, I’m one of the worst persons that ever lived, I’ve made a lot of people suffer and most of them hate me. I think I shouldn’t be alive, that way the world would be a much better place, I can’t think why I could make the difference here, nobody will miss me. I’m that guy that walks alone with his head down, who people never talk to, I don’t have any real friends and obviously neither do I have a girlfriend. I can’t understand nobody, I can’t understand how no one ever tells me the truth, I can’t understand why am I here nor why I haven’t gone yet. I have already accepted the fact that I will die alone and miserable because I have never been in a relationship. I have been completely alone my whole entire life and that’s the way it will stay. No one ever does anything for me, no one cares about me, no one bothers talking to me, asking how I am, or even noticing my existence. There’s not a day in life that I don’t fuck up in ways you couldn’t imagine, every second I live is a second I suffer. Every day enslaves me. Given that I can’t express my feelings to nobody I don’t really know how to express myself, that’s probably why you may have been bored by this or think I’m an idiot or I exagerate things, overall as I said, no one ever gives a fuck about me so why should you?. Thanks for the space.