Nights

The nights never seem to end. Even if I cover myself up,I feel cold. Empty. I lost my best half over 5 months ago. I gave you my heart. I showed you the person that I truly am. My whole I’ve been afraid of people. They all leave. They all die. And the worst part is that every time someone leaves,no matter how minuscule the friendship, I die inside. It seems I’m at my limit. She was the most important person in my life and still she is in my mind. Time could not be made for me. Now the days are long and dull. The nights freeze me over and I never sleep. When I dream,you are there. These dreams are all nightmares. I lost you,even when you told me I never would. Words are just words. Actions speak for themselves. I’m tired of being a mirror and reflecting everyone’s happiness. It’s not who I am. Not anymore. It was only a year,but it was the best time of my life. Now I sit here,waiting for my body to shut down. Waiting for it all to end. But nothing happens. It seems that now I am at the end. Never have I felt so hollow and emotionless. The tears never stop. The pain is endless. And the worst part is that you probably don’t care. I love you.
The three words that destroyed. The three words that keep me here. And the three words that will kill me.