This site has really helped me overcome my pain and suffering. I first joined on December 2012.
Currently I am officially free from depression and suicidal thoughts.
I will never, never forget all of you who were there during my darkest times to motivate me here on SP: (I don’t know whether you are reading this or not)
Amakua
Rocketman
RuinsOfTheVoid
SadBk
Dawg
And many many others!
Lastly, for B.N.Crazy, whose quote really opened my eyes: “no ones holding a gun to your head and saying i have to feel that way, so why am i?†This quote was the beginning of my decision to fight.
Thank you SP, this is the place I feel belonged. I feel you are all my family.
We are all fighting battles here, and together we shall fight.
Good luck everyone.
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🙂 I think the people that come here (sometimes unintentionally) change others’ lives. It’s an amazing tool. Just needs a visual upgrade methinks, impossible to find posts you’ve posted on. Whatever. I can’t leave.
RealTalk30 shouts out for:@
Clevername
Duke of Marmalade
Dawg
AtTheEnd
Butterfly_free
RenoBill
CosmicBlip
One_day
Noonoo12
Killswitchon
Painlife
Searchingformeaning
(In no order)
And yes everyone who feels they need to be here helping others be stronger and belong.
Amakua that old crazy kind odd lady.
GoodGirl a friend whom I hope is doing better
Lon3Spartan haha that old vet ;o
BlackSwan
MollyWoppit
Determined Rebel
RestrictingHeart……
Subtle_Bloodstains
S2419
feelingempty
Nat…
Most importantly….Backtrackinginlife
To all those who’ve left for reasons unknown, known, or suicide…
Well, since we’re giving shoutouts…
LetMeSleep (not sure about the capitalization)
IowaGirl
The former is known to have passed, the latter suspected but not confirmed. Both highly intelligent beings, clearly evident by their posts.
Others worth mentioning:
Aequitus
SadBK
Dawg
Cosmic Blip
Duke of Marmalade
Exit to Nowhere
Scar504
lorax
RealTalk30
And others i can’t recall at this moment.
I’m from the spring ’13 crew, i suppose.
I sometimes wonder how many of these names are actually the same person…
Im still as fucked up as ever but i do have to thank
clevername
realtalk30
noodle
and dawg.
😀
Thank you for the shout-out! I’m not even around here that much, now I feel special, lol. I didn’t realize we joined at the same time. I’m glad you are fighting the good fight <3 Keep up the good work! This IS a nice little online family of sorts. We can be more real here than on other sites.
@clevername Thank you too! I was a little more active on here before Letmesleep died 🙁 I wish you'd had the chance to talk to him, the epicly long comments would have been flying…
@SadBk:
Yeah… that really would have been ‘something.’ And i can certainly understand how losing someone close (even if only “e-close”) might suck the wind from your sails, and make the previously shared “environment” less appealing.
I’m surprised i didn’t end up here sooner. I guess i never thought there was anything i need to “learn” about suicide, so i never bothered “googling it.” I can’t remember exactly what search term brought me here initially. I ended up on the metanoia page, read the whole thing… next thing i know, my screen is filled with blue and i’m reading about helium and ethics. Over the next few months, this became a sort of haven for me.
@clevername Glad it sucked you in! I’m not sure what it is, really, that makes me not post. I’m definitely in a different place now mentally than I was when I joined. Even though “nothing has changed.” And it’s surprising how much you can learn from people on here, isn’t it? So many different viewpoints and experiences. It’s probably not the healthiest place to be but it feels good for now…
It’s nice to be remembered for having said or done something that touches the life of another… thank you to those that found something useful from my cantankerous ramblings. I simply try to objectively share the truth as i know it to be from my experience and through the knowledge i’ve learned over the decades.
I cannot create a shout out list …mostly because i have a horrible memory and can’t remember half the people i’ve talked to – i hope no one is offended by that – but i cannot help it – it’s the truth of my geezer brain that it don’t remember shit.
Those who deserve honorable mention are every single person here who has taken a moment to welcome someone or say a kind and/or positive word while suffering your own desperate and private hell but still found that moment to set your issues aside to think about and respond to someone else – YOU (current reader of this message) are the hero that makes this web site work – YOU (current reader of this message) are the one who gives this site an immeasurable value
My shout out goes to YOU (current reader of this message) – thank you for all you do.
humble dawg
How apropos, Dawg shows up to show us exactly the type of thing that earned his shout outs. lol. “Perfect dawg” 🙂
@Dawg That’s exactly why I can’t do a list… I would forget someone and their feelings would be hurt and this is a dangerous website on which to hurt people’s feelings 🙁 But you said it all in your usual eloquent fashion. Everyone wins. Just like the way they do sports in school nowadays… we ALL get a trophy! Whether we deserve one or not!
Very lovely shoutout list.
I wonder where is Amakua, she hasn’t shown up in forevers, I hope everything is going well with her. 🙁
And I’m looking forward for posts by BrooklynBoxx, but she hardly ever come on here again…
Hogpotter she came back under a new name (brooklynboxx). Amakua isnt coming back there were problems and people she dodnt wamt to put with so she left. There have been huge scandals on here in the past..
@attheend Why are there fucking scandals here and its a sucide website….seriously… does everyone have to fuck shit up for the people that look for help…
@attheend Why are there fucking scandals here and its a sucide website….seriously… does everyone have to fuck shit up for the people that look for help…
Scandals? I didn’t know about that, awww, that’s so sad. But whatever, I will never forget Amakua.
Anyways AtTheEnd I remember you too! 🙂
Really? Brooklyn came back with a new name? Which is it?
@Abselom
Ive been in one or two. Quite horrid. Um lets see. There was one…well no nvm thats gossiping. Anyway you must remember we are humans. We breed pain suffering gossip evil, we also breed joy love compassion ect. Wherever we gather in numera there will be what we breed. For the record i fuck shit up constanty. I did create something that led to a lot of fights and nasty posts on here. Lovely legacy.
@Hogpotter
Amakua was crazy but fun and smart. She also liked to makes hints at dirty things. Dawg remembers ;3 ahahaha
Brooklynboxx is using the username PrincessBrooke. She wrote a post about being back and she mentioned her old username.
@Abselom
Oh and don’t let your mom choose your university. Pick for yourself. If she gets upset then she should grow up. Your parents gave birth to you but you do not owe them for it. They cannot chose for you. You cannot and ahould not be her crutch. We all have togrow up sometime~ I’ll grow up soon too LOL. And i live in MD too o-o Sunflower k ows this but…yeah theres a good reason i only asked to meet and hang out once and never again XD maryland is pretty, but LA is nice. I hate hot weather. LA is also one of the nastiest most crime filled cities as well as a 3-4 hour bumper to bumper drive. Ah home. Home is where you make it. Ive never made it home it seems XD