im supposed to be happy
why am i not
im on vacation
i have a girl that loves me
i have a comfy life
why do i still feel like this
why does it come back
it leaves for a bit then comes back again
im tired of it
all of it.
thoughts of suicide have crept in slowly but surely over the past months
fuck
i dont know man
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fuck. i don’t know too. it should be so simple but it’s always so miserable.
Well, it’s fairly relieving to know that I’d probably still feel this way if I had a girl that loved me and a comfy life. If only because nothing else has made it go away yet, so maybe I can stop pining for such things if I know it won’t change the pain.
It’s just so messed up. It’s always there and even if it fades away a bit, it lingers until something brings it back.