Sorry about the post explosion. I’m just losing my mind today.
I really feel the pain of musicians who have killed themselves. Maybe it’s because you can go back and listen to their lyrics, their voices, and for a moment know exactly what they were feeling.
Lately I’ve been researching Brad Delp, singer for Boston. He killed himself about 2 years ago with a 2 charcoal grills in his house. At first everyone thought it was because the band screwed him out of money, but later the story turned up that he had put a secret camera in his girlfriend’s sister’s bedroom and got caught. The sister threatened to tell the girlfriend. He apologized a million times and said he was going through some tough times in their relationship. A week later they found him dead with the note pinned to his shirt: “Mr. Brad Delp. J’ai une ame solitaire. I am a lonely soul.”
Who knows what it was really about. All I know is when I hear his amazing voice, it gives me such a sad feeling. “I closed my eyes and I slipped away…”
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“you can go back and listen to their lyrics, their voices, and for a moment know exactly what they were feeling”
Yes, I feel this same exact way. Maybe we can feel their pain. I commented about it yesterday, about Matt Paquette.
Il dit: “j’ai une ame solitaire”. Moi aussi.
Brad died in 07 I remember because when I was researching charcoal suicide I remember reading that…..but anyway yeah man I totally get what you mean its like their songs are the only ones who understand how you feel sometimes…
@PNL You’re right it was 07… That’s really funny, I remember finding out in 09. That was the year my world started to come to an end, so in my mind I guess time stops in 09. Hence the assumption that it happened 2 years ago.
For some reason Brad’s suicide really had an impact on me. Boston songs remind me of my happy teenage days.
Other musician suicides, like Kurt Cobain, affect me too. But it’s the most powerful when you have happy thoughts associated with their music. I think I was already pretty depressed by the time I got into Nirvana.
@Tristeza Your poetry has the same effect. Please don’t kill yourself (at least not while I’m alive) because I would keep re-reading your poetry and feeling really really sad. It’s beautiful.
Cyanure, I hope that you read it.
Alors.. j’ai lu votre commentaire sur mon
poème.. aujourd’hui vous avez dit “Tristeza ne pas te tuer.” Eh bien je suis perdu en ce moment mais tes paroles ont été rassurantes. Je vous remercie.. email me if you want to so you can read more poems (at least for a while). I dont know if I’ll keep posting here.