I don’t even know anymore..

@vendura…. The short answer is that “life is unfair.” The more complex and complicated one is probably too long and difficult to grasp for our understanding. I don’t even think the question can be answered “why is life unfair?” ….I guess we just have to accept the answer as “its just the way things are”.

OP: My mom also has the “perfect child syndrome”. Sometimes I think its to prove to my dad she could do it on her own but I honestly don’t think a woman can truly raise a boy to be a man without a man present. I know how it feels to be isolated as I have done the same thing. I haven’t been outside it what seems like AGES. I don’t really like being around other people period. I just feel like they can see my mental issues I mean I know they can’t I just feel like they can see how broken I am. I’m not really sociable and I think I prefer the comfort of isolation because people around here lack the understanding of my problems so they make assumptions and judgements on shit they know nothing about.

I think you need to think about whats best for YOU….fuck everyone else at this point if you think its best for you not to be here then you have a right to make a choice about your life. Whats best for others isn’t always whats best for you and whats best for you isn’t necessarily always best for others. Your objective at this point is to figure out whats best for you.