I gave it my best

I tried I really did but in the end everyone just abandons me, guess that’s what I get for surrounding my self with selfish people. I think Saturday night will be perfect im going to end this pain. I know theres a few good friends that will truly be hurt but in the end I think they already knew I was suffering way to much. As for the rest fuck em I hope they feel like shit, personally Id rather them not care because they never really cared at all. You see some people deal with emotional pain or physical pain I have both, I can bearly make it thourgh a day without not being able to stand the next morning and fighting addiction sucks im going to spend the rest of my money on oxy and have a ball for the next 3 days and go out happy. Or at least in my fucked up idea of happiness, you once you taken drugs long enough you began to find out that chemical happiness far outways emotional happiness. Ive dealt the shitty hand again and again and well im outta chips and its time to walk away from the table.