It all started when I was 13 actually, I started smoking and sneaking out and getting into boys.. And ya know, I hung out with the whore so rumors were spread. Anyways, my friend, she had this “cousin” who she said was only 15 an he looked it so I believed it. I liked him.. alot. So one night, me and my other friend snuck out to hang out with him and he ended up molesting me and my friend. Turns out he was 22. After that night my life has never been the same. I went through depression for two years. I ate and slept & bathed. I would never leave my house. I gained 50 ponds! So now.. I’m overweight. I’m so self conscious to the point where I don’t leave my house. I workout and everything and nothing seems to go right for me. In fact, I think everyone in my life hates me. Exactly why I let my guards down and lost my virginty to a friend of mine… of course I was only 15 so rumors went around and people would call me a whore and a slut do I stopped going to school all together. My moms ashamed of me and I know it, everyone is. Even if I found the cute for cancer nobody would care, nobody would.. A couple of months ago I began “talking” to this girl whom we both developed really strong feelings for… I ended up playing her because I crave attention. I have to have attention and she didn’t give it to me. Now all her friends call me a whore & I just hate my life. I’ve attempted suicide who’re and no luck. I don’t want to live. I want life to be over. I feel like I’ve been on this journey long enough. I hate myself and just everything about the world. I really want to die… If someone is here to listen… please… talk to me, idk what to do…
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It’s not too late to turn things around
Email me if you wanna talk.
I’m a guy, and 17, and I promise I won’t treat you badly.
I’ll listen and try to be a good friend.
My email address is brl.cents@gmail.com
Your friend,
Blindaudio
It really is
Ok, so putting the incident with the cousin to one side. You are now getting attention for the wrong reasons from kids in your class. Of course, you are under the spotlight. Eventually, the light will move elsewhere and you just have to see it out until that happens.
You know I thought it would have by now but it hasn’t.. I just don’t know what to do anymore
It’s never okay to play someone…..wanting attention and wanting to be loved though makes us do horrible things. The interesting part is your name reminds me of someone who did that. Then again it’s not like I haven’t done it countless times. I’m so silly. You are still quite young. Things can be changed. Cliche but yes you can change your stars.
I had some same guys do the same to me then spread rumors about me
I gained a lot of weight too I skyrocketed from 140 to 250 in a matter of three years Im losing weight now thankfully:) Im at 188
and if you want to talk You could messege me or I could even give you my number,Im 22 and from cali:)
And btw i used to be 140 got depressed,moved from the city im from with a same situtation like yiurs,skyrockted to 240 around 2009 im 188 now and i used oxyelite pro,seriously if you wanna feel evenly remotley close to your old self get it messege me for more details