I just need somewhere to write this letter where I doubt anyone I know would find it…
Dear Guitar Player,
I know we barely talk, and the first day or two of us talking was flirting and sexual content, but I have a crush on you and want to get to know you better. We’re both aware I have a boyfriend, and I don’t plan on leaving him for you, don’t worry. I know you wouldn’t date me, I’m seventeen and you’re twenty-one I think… but I’d like to get to know you more than just some hot guy that plays in a metal band.
School has just started today, and I just hated it. I have one friend, and we only have first period together. I don’t see us becoming true friends, to be honest. You and I don’t seem to have much in common, and I don’t see you having much depth. Music, work, and sex seem to be the things that make up your mind. That’s okay though…
I doubt you see me as much more than some chubby little punk chick with a crush, and I get it. That’s really all I am. I come to your shows and take pictures, then smile and blush and be awkward…what else can I do?
Anyway, I just want to tell you I wish we’d talk more…
Love, The Photographer
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I would reckon most guitar players have more “depth” than you will ever know. Or maybe you’ll get to find out?
He’s very talented with the technological part of guitar, and his music is beautiful, but no matter how many times I try to have a serious conversation, he doesn’t catch on.
1) perhaps he’s too deep and doesn’t realize
2) perhaps he knows you have a bf; why, then, should he “catch on?”
Guitar takes a lot of time and energy, a lot of commitment, dedication, discipline, and is often on the minds of those who are serious in their pursuit of its mastery, often as a form of expression that transcends what words are capable of. It’s possible his verbal abilities are less developed, due to this, or in parallel to this. It’s possible that his fascination with guitar has both stemmed from, and contributed to, his verbal disinclination. Just some thoughts.
But if he knows you have a bf, he might not have spare time and energy for “a serious conversation” with someone who, for all intents and purposes, should be considered “off limits,” or might be viewed as a futile or reckless endeavor.
It’s also quite possible that “he’s just not that into you.” Conversely, it’s also possible that he IS into you, but is shy, or behaves in a more reserved manner, due to knowing you have a bf.
It could be lots of different things.
If you’re that into him, try to be patient, and maybe make casual forays into his “waters.” He might just not be comfortable with serious conversations. You might have to gradually coax him into a sort of comfort-zone, before he’ll “open up.” That’s a lot of energy to be putting into someone who isn’t your bf. ^^
And then: if you do manage to get through to him, and he ends up liking a girl who doesn’t plan on leaving her bf… then what? That’s a complication most would be content to avoid. And what if you change your mind? I bet your bf would not be pleased. Not that you’d care much, at that point, but i think it’s worth considering.
If you are pursuing something outside of what you have… what does that mean?