Sometimes I ask myself why am I here… sometimes I ask myself what is the point of living…. when you have no hopes or dreams , or future who do you turn to? a blade maybe? perhaps a razor? If you cry no one will have to know…if you cut yourself no one will have to see your scars…who am I? what made me the way I am now….why must life bully me? why can’t I be pretty? or rich? how can I tell someone what’s wrong with me…
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1 I only have 2 friends (well kinda 3 )
2 I have low self esteem (I’m worthless)
3 I don’t like boys (which isn’t ‘normal’ )
4 I hate my life (well sometimes my life is ‘okay’)
5 I don’t see the point in life if I’m gonna die anyways
6 I’m tired of living(everyday I get older and more miserable)
7 no one understands me(I find myself alone most of the time)
8 I’m too scared to kill myself ( I’m afraid to feel pain not death )
9 I try my best to be nice to everyone(but I don’t see the point anymore)
10 I HATE school (school is the most stupidest thing ever all you do is work)
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I have Millions of other problems but that is all I can think of now
thanks for reading
5 comments
You sound pretty normal! Find a way to change your attitude and you will be fine. The only difference between you and someone you admire is that they are trying harder than you.
I know that you mentioned that you don’t like boys much. I don’t know why that is, but I will not judge. I’m a guy, and you seem very sweet. You can email me if you wish, I also struggle with a lot of the problems you do as well.
My email address is: brl.cents@gmail.com
I will promise to be a good friend. I can’t promise to understand completely, but I will listen and love.
Believe me, you don’t want to be pretty. It just makes you even more of a target for hateful people – unless you become hateful and malicious yourself… But who wants to be like that right?
I think you sound pretty cool… And hey, people who live their lives trying to be clones are soooooo boring! You’ve got just the right personality to keep cool people interested. Your still growing and learning, go easy on yourself.
@ blindaudio when I said that I don’t like boys I meant that I’m not attracted to them…
@freeme if I was pretty I wouldn’t care what people think of me (or if they were mean to me)… whenever I look in the mirror I look ‘unattractive’ and people are still mean to me >I just want to be pretty so bad.<