It’s fucking ridiculous. Finally get my boyfriend back after cheating on him and lying on him, and now my depression and paranoia comes back full swing.
A couple months ago, I met a guy who I had tons of things in common with, and long story short we had an affair after my boyfriend started pushing me away. I ended up telling him, and he dumped me. But now, we’ve worked things out and it’s mostly in the past.
The other day,, we were laying in the grass. He turned to me and asked me to marry him. We had already been planning on it before all of the bad things went down, but this felt so good, knowing that I had redeemed myself.
But I don’t trust him… he lied to me, too. I was messing with his phone, and I saw a few drafts to his ex-girlfriend, who he told me he’d stop talking to. I got really upset, a bit accusatory, etc….but I know he told me the truth, he was very honest about why he was texting her. I just can’t help but be distrusting..
And now I’m back to being suicidal…planning to cut myself tonight….I just…don’t know what to do anymore.
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If you can, try to reach out for assistance with the trust issues, the suicidal ideations, and the cutting. It seems like the trust issues are already creating some sort of wedge. I speak from experience when I say that the trust issues and suicidal thoughts can impact a relationship…. They really did a number on mine. If I can help someone else avoid a glitch, I’d like to.
Whatever you do, don’t lose hope. It may take some time to work through what’s going on, but it can be worked through.
Honey,
Too soon for marriage in this one. I get it, you love him. But cheating and lying both take some time to get over on both sides. Wait some time. See what happens.
If he lies, is he worth it? If you cheat, what will happen to the relationship?
I’m not trying to sound harsh. If I do, I do apologize.
Feel free to email me if needed,
brl.cents@gmail.com